Beautiful Disaster.

the "out" tray

i feel bad leaving Mr Nice Guy wondering on his blog, "is being nice enough?" and he ranted " kinda feel that gals in SG are typically looking for the whole package. Good looks / physique is one thing, having a good career is another, having a car is definitely a bonus. Being nice is the icing on the cake. I have seen my gal-frens falling for bad boys, only to have the bad boys cheating and bullying and abusing them and the girls just can't get enough of them. *rolls eyes*"

well.... i guess he's really sore but honestly speaking, i have to say being nice isnt enough. also, he got it wrong. it is in my opinion that good looks and physique isnt a must, neither is a good career or a car. i just want to see a lil more personality other than "nice-ness".

sometimes, nice is plain and forgettable.

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my "in" tray

last night i had my first date with J at marina. i was late by half an hour cos my mean manager gave me work (on a blardy saturday mind you) and wanted it in on saturday itself.

luckily, J didnt make a fuss about it. we caught Bean. and our seats were the ones without arm rests between us. it was him who bought the tickets so when we found our seats, i gave him that -__- look. but it wasnt intentional. it just happened that these were the last row, center-most seats. the movie was alrite, nothing much to "wow" about though. but we later had dinner at swensons, with loads of fun and laughter. since the first day i met him, ive found the old chirpy cheeky side of myself, which has gone missing for pretty long.

yup. looking again at Mr Nice Guy's description about girls who go for the whole good looks, car and career package thingi, well, i guess it doesnt apply to me. J is sporty but he isnt very tall nor does he has model looks. he's the boy-next door kind (but i kinda dig his ear stud. haha.). and i dont give a damn about car because mrt rides can be exciting too, especially missing trains or dashing into them the last minute. and for career, J's gonna be a double degree student at smu for the next 4 yrs or so. definitely not a career that reaps in money. haha.

yup. it is partly because of him that i'm pretty determined to go to SMU. but... i'll leave it all up to heaven to decide. got a rejection call from NTU. alrite not quite a rejection but indirectly it is. a few days ago some prof called me asked me go for an interview for the psych course interview. that's my 4th choice. so you know what it meant right? i failed to qualify for the business, accounting and econs courses at NTU. arghz.

cai was here with you at 4:49 PM .

being in the company of my ta02 classmates was fantabulous. i guess, they made my learning at ngee ann less of a pain (in case you dont know, ive always struggled at accounting). anyways, yesterday was jen's birthday party.

eugene and i got her something from an adult shop. (no, the shop's not located in little india, in case you were wondering.) we got her present after about 20 mins of browsing. aha. the hot nurse-themed lingerie set we settled for was the more decent one amongst those on the shelves.

while eugene was paying, i suddenly remembered that there was the price tag. so i told the cashier to remove it. then she asked, "gift for a friend?"

DUH!you should have seen how i quickly i said "YES!".

hah. i sooo didnt want anyone (even strangers) to misunderstand. especially cos when we were doing the product comparison between different lingerie sets, i commented that "these look plastic" and eugene asked "is it uncomfortable?". lol. caring for jen he is but that statement has very high chances of getting misunderstood.

anyways, though i didnt stay long at the chalet, it was great catching up with the rest and learing mahjong. speaking of mahjong, jus (my shifu) is such a pro. lol. it's funny how we both (teaming up together) got so excited when our chances of winning were pretty high.

i guess no words can describe how im gonna miss my class now that we've all cleared our 3rd year in poly. most of us girls will go different Unis if we get in, and the guys, NS. bleahz.

i didnt stay at the chalet. woke up this morning and headed to the office and edited 2 tax computations, filled up the Form B1, IR8A blah blah blah. but my mind was so not with me. felt brain dead for some unknown reason. even when i started my laptop, i keyed in my password wrongly too many times, that my account got locked out.

and best of all, the IT dept isnt open today. but lady luck was just playing games with me again. in the end, a perm staff helped me contact an IT staff who was resting at home. if it didnt happen, i'd have to return home and would have wasted an hour in total travelling to and from work.

cai was here with you at 9:30 AM .

give me a break!

these days there's this thing about me being in the limelight (and really you know how i hate attention). arghz. everyone's eager to know stuff about me. so when i had lunch with charles and clar, gossip went around about "that guy i was eating with (i.e. charles)". it was silly really. and unfortunate for me that charles and i wore matching colours on that day.

and then when i wanted to avoid doing OT, i lied that i was gonna see a doc. i told only a few, but word spreaded round, and i started getting messages from the other temp staff. its so weird cos guys arent suppose to be gossipy. i didnt reply. had to give the impression that i was sick and sleeping early. hahaha.

yeah that was yesterday.

and lunch today, i got my privacy invaded. was in mid-sentence with a colleague when suddenly the cameraman for the show "our makan places lost and found" came to our table and directed his bulky camera at me. they were earlier fliming the "famous" chicken rice stall at amoy. and i really had no freaking idea why he was fliming me. and the stupidest thing was, i was eating noodles, not chicken rice from that store.

i shyly looked away. and that was why my colleagues from the opposite table laughed. they said "ur action very cute n funny lahz" -__- the camera was right in front of me for almost a minute. which was felt like eternity as it was really, really really uncomfortable and irritating. my guy colleagues at the other table later told me that they came to a conclusion that "the cameraman only shoots young n pretty girls". what buayas. i just hope Mediacorp cuts out the whole thing with me inside. my broad face is broad enough in real life. having it on flat screen telly sets willl make my face look like a giant pizza! whats more, ive drawn enough attention in the office already ):

the ring on my left index finger has been the object of speculation (yet again). it is my luck charm. (not that i believe in lucky charms) but it does seem pretty coincidental that my lucky days are days that i wear my ring. so... mr nice guy's losing hope in me (yay!). he asked me, "if i ask you to go out again with me, will your bf be angry?"

i never told him i was dating. but i guess... he inferred something (wrongly) from the ring. aha! lucky for me. lucky ring. but the ring's not working against the buayas at work. you know how desperate post-NS guys are. ive got movie date request from them. help me.

cai was here with you at 5:10 AM .

strange but true

haha. laughed my head off when a male friend told me that his female supervisor at work asked him if he was gay.

if i were him, i would have said "yes" immediately.

afterall, my friend's a lesbian trapped in a guy's body. haha. a lesbian's sorta gay too aint i right? (:

anyways, im sooooo in loveeeeeeeee with John Legend's naughty song. it's called PDA (We don't care). and to those techies, PDA isnt those electronic PDA.. it stands for Public Displays of Affection. not that im an exhibitionist or advocate PDAs but the song's sexy. love the tune of the piano. if only i had time, i'll dig up all my piano books and re-master piano playing all over again. amazing what a nice song can drive me to do. heh.

cai was here with you at 9:27 AM .

the unwilling damsel in distress

haha. at work sometimes im quite a muddlehead. but the stubborn me will stubbornly struggle to get what i want (and usually reject help along the way due to ego issues). aha. until im near to giving up that is.

so like today, i was struggling in the compactus. it's something like quite a number of library book shelves just that they are on rollers and can be "compressed together". i was trying to find some files. i was struggling as i already had a heavy stack in my arms. as i was busy locating the files i want... suddenly someone reached out and swiftly took the files from me.

i looked up. there i saw it, a familiar face smiling at me, who chided me for being greedy before taking the files to my desk.

and there i was, standing there pretty dumbfounded, half grateful for his help but half embarassed that my ego's a lil bruised. (as you know, i rarely ask for help unless it's necessary).

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anyways, peeps at my workplace are pretty ok. then.. im glad ive got friends outside to have lunch with. sometimes eating with my usual lunch kahkees - who are all male - can be irritating cos they like stuff that comes in large quantites and taste doesnt quite take priority. i on the other hand am the reverse.

speaking of lunch dates, ive got quite a few peeps to meet up for lunch. like Mr Nice Guy working 14 floors below me. a school mate working around the area, and my ta02 pals. how cool.

by the way, im getting the jitters thinkin about uni admission interviews. but no time to think of that right now. gotta hit the sack and get ready for work later. ):

cai was here with you at 7:57 AM .

SHENTON WAY HERE I COME!

since school ended, ive been slacking so much that finding a job didnt quite cross my mind. yup. but i was pampered by a kind few who've offered me potential "lobangs". like a certain "him" who said he can make arrangements with his buddy to let me do mystery shopping and earn 50 bucks per shop, or work at another of his buddy's boardgame cafe (somewhat like settlers). then there was jiahui who offered me a chance to take up an interview opportunity given to her for an office job.

i declined their offers... cos i didnt wanna rely on that certain "him". and as for jiahui's offer, it was almost perfect just that the job involves accounting. or maybe these were excuses i gave myself, cos i just wanted to bum around and waste my hols. haha.

but last week, it was during a chat with my "godfather" that i began to feel ashamed of my childish behaviour. i realised should make use of this opportunity (now that im no longer busy with those stupid projects) and earn some quick bucks. feeling guilty of wasting 2-3 wks of hols, i just bluffed that i was "in the process of finding a job".

i thought that he asked purely for the sake of asking. like you know how adults like to ask kids "how old are you" during family gatherings. stupid questions that they wouldnt really bother about. but i guessed wrong. he's an amazing guy. and i was surprised with a call from him on friday saying that he's giving my name to Deloitte.

then today, ive got a call asking me if i can join their tax department tomorrow.

either the job's really sucky or my "godfather" had put in good words for me, for they didnt ask to look at my resume, my grades at school whatsoever. yup. hopefully it all works well man. so far, everything sounds good to me: the pay, the working hours... except for the place... i cant believe im working in the same building as a certain someone im trying hard to avoid.

it is a small world. and just as my life is blessed, it can be quite tragic at times. but nonetheless, im so glad for the nice people out there who had me in mind. really touched.

and speaking of earning bucks... im starting to have ideas on going into a mini-venture with one of my besties. i dont think that there's a fool-proof method that gurantees successs. but if you dont try, you'll never know. yup. wish us the best of luck. as to what business it is, i'll keep it a secret for now. let you guys know when we've got solid (and i do mean solid) plans. (:

cai was here with you at 12:22 AM .

did the rain make their hearts colder?

fever... flu.. sore throat! having them all today. at first it started with a fever and runny nose on friday... then today *kaboom* sore throat. the sore throat sucks the most cos it's too painful to even swallow or speak. you know how frustrating it is when you're already so frustrated. and yet you feel quite handicapped. sigh. maybe that's why ive decided to blog today. to rant it out. hah. i even missed my class outing last night.

anyways, my falling sick has got to do with society. i hate those selfish people are out there, who are well sheltered under their lovely brollys, and dont bat an eyelid when they see a poor miserable soul drenched in the rain at the traffic light. suckers.

in case you are asking if the scenario was reversed, would i share my umbrella? definitely. ive done it before in fact. it does feel cheesy but i think it's more embarassing to stand there, feigning ignorance of that pitiful sight. what's so embarassing about helping someone...? really, i just dont get it.

by the way, the bad headache i last blogged about was a migraine. could have been triggered cos of MSG-ladden foods. mmhmm. gotta watch what i eat... bleahz.

cai was here with you at 2:50 AM .