YSaturday, December 30, 2006
1. fat fat fat
ive been eating a lot a lot a lot lately. those who've seen me have seen it. and ive put on some weight. (im sure you an tell). argh. my physical fitness test is coming up soon. so much for my plan to keep thin. i hate xmas! it turns me into... a disgusting blob of ___ (insert whatever noun you want here).
2. sin #1: allowing myself to fall to temptation
ive been coughing lately cos of the great chocs my dad got from his pals. i caught flu and then later my cough got worst. i swear i stopped eating chocs when i had the cold. but the cough just worsened. bleah. the consequences i have to bear.. for being unable to resist those sexy yummy little pralinesssssssss. rah! (they are also another reason why i got fat)
3. sin #2: being "thoughtless"?
i had a pretty big misunderstanding recently. i'll give you an analogy. assume that Anna and Ben have been good neighbours for years. Anna made a self-invitation, knocked on Ben's door and was let in. subsequently, Anna didnt give Ben an invitation so Ben didnt knock on Anna's door and Anna didnt open doors for Ben.
my thoughts are that Anna must feel very close to Ben because she drops the formalities and dares to make a self-inivtation to Ben's home. although Anna didn't give Ben an invitation to visit her home, it doesnt mean that Ben isn't welcome. IF Ben knocks, Anna will open her doors and give Ben as much hospitatlity as what he had shown her.
but one day.. Anna found out that Ben thought Anna was a miser and an ungrateful piece of crap . but Ben cant be blamed for thinking so. afterall, he is a nice chap who feels that friends should reciprocrate. as Anna didnt give him an inivitation, he thought she was stingy.
the whole big mess is nothing but a big misunderstanding, which resulted from the lack of formal invitations. but between close friends, are formal invitations needed at all? to good friends of mine, they just need to knock and i'll answer. even if i dont give out house invites, you can just drop by and i'd be glad to play host for you. never think that i wont reciprocrate your kindness. but of course, i know i have areas i have to work on. i'll try to make my care for you in more obvious ways, to make sure misunderstandings like this doesnt happen ever again. (:
(of course, the misunderstanding between me and someone isnt about neighbours and house invites. i love my friends, care for them and i badly want them to know it. because i know some will feel uncomfortable making self-invites, i will make the effort give them invitations instead. also, invitations makes me a more sincere host.) :p
4. comfort: so i had been pretty much traumatised by this misunderstanding actually. it created self-hatred in me. but i have some friends to thank for supporting me - a pal told me not to change one bit of my trademark cold and mean nature as it was these attributes that made him talk to me much. such a stupid statement that made me hate myself (a little) less.
cai was here with you at