YSaturday, December 30, 2006
1. fat fat fat
ive been eating a lot a lot a lot lately. those who've seen me have seen it. and ive put on some weight. (im sure you an tell). argh. my physical fitness test is coming up soon. so much for my plan to keep thin. i hate xmas! it turns me into... a disgusting blob of ___ (insert whatever noun you want here).
2. sin #1: allowing myself to fall to temptation
ive been coughing lately cos of the great chocs my dad got from his pals. i caught flu and then later my cough got worst. i swear i stopped eating chocs when i had the cold. but the cough just worsened. bleah. the consequences i have to bear.. for being unable to resist those sexy yummy little pralinesssssssss. rah! (they are also another reason why i got fat)
3. sin #2: being "thoughtless"?
i had a pretty big misunderstanding recently. i'll give you an analogy. assume that Anna and Ben have been good neighbours for years. Anna made a self-invitation, knocked on Ben's door and was let in. subsequently, Anna didnt give Ben an invitation so Ben didnt knock on Anna's door and Anna didnt open doors for Ben.
my thoughts are that Anna must feel very close to Ben because she drops the formalities and dares to make a self-inivtation to Ben's home. although Anna didn't give Ben an invitation to visit her home, it doesnt mean that Ben isn't welcome. IF Ben knocks, Anna will open her doors and give Ben as much hospitatlity as what he had shown her.
but one day.. Anna found out that Ben thought Anna was a miser and an ungrateful piece of crap . but Ben cant be blamed for thinking so. afterall, he is a nice chap who feels that friends should reciprocrate. as Anna didnt give him an inivitation, he thought she was stingy.
the whole big mess is nothing but a big misunderstanding, which resulted from the lack of formal invitations. but between close friends, are formal invitations needed at all? to good friends of mine, they just need to knock and i'll answer. even if i dont give out house invites, you can just drop by and i'd be glad to play host for you. never think that i wont reciprocrate your kindness. but of course, i know i have areas i have to work on. i'll try to make my care for you in more obvious ways, to make sure misunderstandings like this doesnt happen ever again. (:
(of course, the misunderstanding between me and someone isnt about neighbours and house invites. i love my friends, care for them and i badly want them to know it. because i know some will feel uncomfortable making self-invites, i will make the effort give them invitations instead. also, invitations makes me a more sincere host.) :p
4. comfort: so i had been pretty much traumatised by this misunderstanding actually. it created self-hatred in me. but i have some friends to thank for supporting me - a pal told me not to change one bit of my trademark cold and mean nature as it was these attributes that made him talk to me much. such a stupid statement that made me hate myself (a little) less.
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YThursday, December 21, 2006
a rubber band that is not stretched has not served its purpose.
that was what one of my colleagues at IRAS told me last night. he just got a new job at deutsche bank a few days ago. im not quite surprised about his job switch cos he is always on the go. but really, how many of us are capable of stepping out of our own comfort zones and try something new?
he said his mum was totally against his move cos he'll miss out on his year-end bonus, and he has to "start from scratch", build relations at a new company which is a pretty different environment.
that's why it's great to know he hasnt regretted his move. sometimes, opportunity only knocks on your door once.
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YThursday, December 14, 2006
common tests have ended!
went to vivo with some ta09 friends and jiahui (i still consider her a ta02-er). it was a leg-breaking experience. remind me not to go there when the GSS comes. but if i do go, i'd be eternally grateful if you buy me a wheelchair.
anyways, we later caught up with bee and clar over dinner at manhattan fish market. i wont be going there again any time soon cos i think we scared the poor waiter. he seems quite new. even the way he took orders... but anyways, that's besides the point. what scared him was, after he took the orders, someone amongst us just had to say "thanks, sexy".
and there was also my desparate reaction when he wanted to take away the seemingly empty and useless pot on the table. i wanted to put shells in it later. so when he was about to reach for it, i shielded it with my hand and repeated "no! no!". i didnt know i'd have such a strong reaction too. i was as surprised as he was.
yup. MG friends would know that that little goofy drama is very me. i felt more like myself when im with those 3 girls last night than i was with my ta09 friends. it's just a chemistry thing that explains my very different sides. AND im still so good at cracking clar up. i used to do it almost every day when we were in the same class with jen and rad too. but last night, i broke my record. i made her laugh till her hands went limp and her hand clutchbag just fell out of her hands. haha. we were walking out of the sommerset station btw. imagine how embarassing it was for me, bee and jiahui!
that was just one part of our silly adventures last night. i havent told you about clar's card getting stuck in the card top up machine, causing us 3 girls much trouble again. and... there's also clar's knight in shining armour who thought she was a double degree student... hmmm. haha.
apart from having a good time, i did bump into jaron too. he said an enthusiastic "huiru!!!!!!" but i was disappointed because we girls had been waiting for ages for a waiter to come. of course i felt guilty for being disappointed over such a silly matter so i returned his greeting with all smiles.
anyways, the night before, someone SMSed me a joke telling me that im the dumbest person in the world. believe me, that was the lousiest joke of the world. and just last night, another person SMSed me the sweetest but biggest lie in the world. i dont want to think what strange SMS i'd get tonight....
note: if you are thinking of joining the trend of weird SMSes, dont even try. im PMSing: that explains why i had an appetite for such a heavy supper after getting home....
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YTuesday, December 12, 2006
Barney is so cooooool
i like this fake Barney video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=krxj7gtcl2s
it's the first time i cracked up watching that purple dinosaur.
isnt that pakistani "gansta" song so catchy? if barney changes its silly "i love you, you love me" songs into ganster raps like these, it'll be a sell-out! right. ignore me. i'd like to blame the stupid test preparations' that is getting into me. it's only during times of "studying stress" that i watch dumb things like these. really.
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YFriday, December 08, 2006
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YTuesday, December 05, 2006
so was it bad luck or just bad karma?
within minutes after i've left my home, bad luck grabbed me by my hands and refused to let go. ):
i was crossing the street in a hurry when *piak* my right charles and keith slipper suddenly felt strangely loose. it was sooo unexpected. i was thinking "shit.. dont tell me.."
and hoho, my greatest fear came true: my slipper snapped! it's quite new. i bought them only a few months ago (on a friday the 13th in Oct). i was sorta stranded stupidly on the road divider. it's quite dangerous to just stand there so i made my way to the other part of the street with my right foot bare.
intending to give dad an emergency call and ask him to bring down a pair of pumps for me, i dug into my bag to look for my mobile. searched frantically for it but it just wasnt there - i left it at home! perfect. i had to run after a lady and borrow her mobile. great thing was, I FORGOT MY HOME NUMBER. yup. how "lucky" could i get?
i really had to walk back home with my right foot bare. the only thing i could thank god for was that there were only a few people walking around my neighbourhood. i would have died of shame if this all happened at mid day.
it was a mad rush. because of all these crap, i was running late for my econs class. i cant be one minute late or else my "lovely econs tutor" will lock the doors on me. i had to take a cab. i had no choice. the cabby was nice. he gave me... a ten cents discount. the cab fare was $9.10 but he charged 9 bucks. yes - on a normal day, i'd think a ten cents discount isnt an issue. but yesterday, when it felt as if the whole world was against me, the ten cents discount made me a little comforted. i mean, i was really so down in luck i could almost die of depression.
luck really isnt on my side lately. the night before, my printer seemed possessed and just kept jamming. at the same time, i had a hard time swallowing the fact that a pretty important email that i sent never got received by eugene for some strange reason - and i didnt have a back up. i dont even know who to be angry at. And i dont like my new neighbour downstairs. they moved in on sunday. sincce then, ive occassionally caught them they looking up into my room when i happen to pass my window (the kitchen window sorta faces my bedroom window). great, so i have voyeurs as new neighbours.
hopefully the bad luck fades by the time common tests start. i dont wish to turn green in the exam hall upon looking at the econs test paper my "lovely econs tutor" set. already she said before in the LT that if we are unprepared for the test, our faces will turn "as green as huiru's green top". so.. if i flunk badly, she may crack some silly joke about my face turning green.
i vividly remember the first lecture we had with her, she told us to take down a certain date and time. we took it down... and she said almost 90 percent of us will make it there. and that date we took down, mind you, was the date of the retest. ok so back to the thing about common tests and all, something tells me, I NEED ALL THE LUCK IN THE WORLD (if not i'll prolly be retained in poly; but which joker - apart from nick - spends more than 3 years in poly...?).
i know i sound rather bratty and whiney in this terribly post. thanks for bearing with me. *takes tissue and sniffs*
Y lots,
Ru
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YSunday, December 03, 2006
ooops! i havent been helping my immediate neighbour water his potted orchids. he's left for australia and will be back in 4 mths' time. *gulp* hopefully a new orchid flower will bloom within 4 mths. the original one has withered! whoopsie.
i usually use the remaning water in my water bottle from school to water his plants but due to my sore throat lately, i dont have extra water to share with the plants after school. the tests are around the corner (i can smell the papers already) but mum of all times, bought great chocs that realy got me chopping on one after another. some things are just too hard to resist!
haiz. i cant wait! cant wait for the tests to end. i counted: in just about another 7 weeks after the common tests, that will be the end of this semester. :DDDDDD
everytime common tests are near, i have so many things that i wanna do! btw, ive been toying with the idea of trying out this so-called sport called "free running", where you jump from high places, like roofs to roofs or even run up against a wall and do a back-flip before coming back down to land (like what they do in those kung-fu shows haha!)
watch this http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KpCOhrmbHow to see what free running is about. it's quite a bo-liao sport where you just leap off high grounds and do some weird stunts but it sure looks exciting.
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