YSaturday, October 07, 2006
forgetfulness can be a blessing...
that's one thing ive learnt on this job. 16 of oct will be the last day of my service there. that's about a week away. i cant really describe how work's been in one word. it's a mix of everything. i've had some fun; i've had some frustrations. i've had a good supervisor, i've had a bad one. apart from the some new friends ive made and the sweet supervisor of mine, i feel rather nonchalant about leaving.
yesterday i handled a tough case. that person left me with a sarcastic remark. the remark's not about me but it does affect my mood somehow. i feel as if im the punching bag that has to take blows for nothing. so, sometimes forgetfulness can be a good thing cos you hear all sorts of rantings that no doubt ridiculous, but are so damn annoying. thank god ive forgotten what happened in the past 3 weeks of my work. if i did, i may end up in an asylum. (:
also, i guess im lucky that i dont get personal attacks by those peeps i handle. one of my friends at work was screamed at and called a bitch. right. if any of my case subjects were to scream like a mad dog and call me a bitch, maybe i'd just innocently say, "wow, but how can that be? im not the one barking."
seriously, i hate angry demanding adults who insist on having things their way. and when they dont get it, they act worse than spoilt brats. they hurl abusives and think they're so clever. i thought there's nothing worse on earth than kids' crying. looks like i've thought wrong.
sigh. the haze.. it was so bad yesterday that on my way to the bus stop, i decided to flag a cab instead. later at night the PSI went up to a 150. but there were still hardcore soccer players at the farrer park field. i dont wish to think how much carbon monoxide they've breathed in.
going for lunch now. bee's birthday is tomorrow. amazing how the weeks fly by. it feels as if it's jiahui's birthday celebration just yesterday. lol. birthdays, birthdays... i just realised today that one of my dear friend's present is semi-covered in dust. long overdue. *wry smile* but we'll see each other soon.
mum's putting stress on me, for no reason. it's silly but it stresses me. for some reason, the topic on dialects came about and she said i should learn my dialects. dialects, with an "S" at the end cos my mum's cantonese and dad's teochew. my... i dont wish to learn either. to be honest, i'd rather learn hokkien. and she kept insisting that i should speak my own dialect and whatnot. it's annoying. to her, all things cantonese are the best things in the world. not that im anti-cantonese but i just dont like such a prejudiced mindset.
besides, if i learn both cantonese and teochew, im sure to screw it up and churn out something worse than singlish.. that's right, it'll be "can-chew". yucks. if it really happens, that's a fact too hard for everyone to swallow.
and my lil sis, she irritated the hell out of me by insisting she left her retarded prefect's badge on our dressing table. i happened to tidy our table this morning and after she realised her precious badge was missing, she got possessed by The Bitch. sigh. wont talk about it.
whoops. door bell rang just now. my neighbour handed me mooncakes. yes, we have nice neighbours in little india and he's chinese in case you were wondering. haha. he has a really nice flat (afterall, he's an interior designer). some pot luck dinner will be held at his place on sunday but... i think i'd give it a miss.
cai was here with you at