YFriday, September 15, 2006
maybe it depends on which group you're in
the last two days, work has been quite slack. so there are times where my colleagues and i chit chat. but it's kinda sad that they gossip. the thing is, there's this irritating short fart who likes to talk to me though i listen ear in ear out. he bores the shit out of me and everyone else. i usually try to avoid him but he just seems to keep popping out... (like a pimple).
the chit-chatters questioned me couple of stuff which are really exasperating. stuff like:
1. whether i realised that the irritating short fart is paying special attention to me
2. whether im single
about half of them guessed im single, the other half guessed that im attached. anyways, being a swinging single has always been my choice. so i frankly told them my status and then they were like "really ah"? and some looked at me as if i was a pitiful rag-and-bones man on the street. strange.
one asked if i felt anything lacking and whether i want to be introduced to someone. that was amusing and sad at the same time because they think that being single = being sad and lonely. i still think the media overrates and oversimplifies romantic relationships. they make it look as if one is incomplete if he/she doesnt find a partner. but if one adopts such a mindset, it may be unhealthy. you'll lack self-esteem and whatnot.
i flatly turned down that "matchmaking offer". i said that ive already got a headache from my suitors and dont need any more to add on to my misery. maybe that was a mistake, because they started asking really juvenile questions like, whether my suitors are handsome or tall or have dimples. looks. do looks really matter?
maybe to a certain extent. as long as the sight of him doesnt irritate me, dont really give a hoot. what wows me most in a person (be it a he/she) is character. quirky spunky and confident personalities especially, which i admit, are rare.
some of my colleagues poured out their relationship woes. one girl said she has been dating her guy for 4 years but feels as if she doesnt know him very well and whom she doesnt like as much as he likes her. i think that's sad.
it's like as if my colleagues are giving me the impression that they are dating because of their need to kill off loneliness and that to me, is quite a joke. my self-confidence and self-esteem isnt the least bit affected but im just concerned about people's mindsets when it comes to dating. it scares me. but then again, who am i to tick them off?
i was posed with a psychological question by one of them. it was something like, if im working late at night and have no time to buy my food, what would i ask someone of the opposite sex to buy for me? it's an MCQ question. the option that i selected was a "hotdog bun and a slice of watermelon" (the other options included "solid meals" like minced pork noodle and someother crap).
so anyway, it is said that peeps who chose the same option as me will have many "one night stands" and will most only truly like one person in my life. maybe that sounds sad to them, just like their lives sound to me. i guess, it all depends on which group you're in. but it doesnt quite matter what others think, as long as you dont lose faith in yourself. i still think that one needs to love oneself before one can love others. but then again, it's all up to personal judgement aint it?
my colleagues really seem to have to say a lot about me. stuff like i dont look local, that i look like the type who had learnt ballet or can play the piano. really scary how word spreads around. i only told a few that i stay at little india. then within a few days, more than half of them knew. bleahz. ive been feeling real tired lately. caught a cold too. i think it's due to the rain or the cold air conditioning in our meeting room. i slept at 11pm last night, all the way to 10 this morning. still have to guide my sis for her CME (civis and moral education) project...
it's about writing an account of a pregnant teenager. they seem to recycle project questions dont they? anyways, this time its cooler for her. she can make use of a blog. i still remember my time i did the old fashion diary style. ah well, kids are real lucky these days. sigh. i still feel tired.... i had answered calls in chinese yesterday. at least 5 or 6. really need to brush up my chinese cos it's damn rusty. im quite dead i think.
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