YMonday, July 24, 2006
yellow
"look at the stars,
look how they shine for you
and all the things that you do."
last verse of "Yellow", by Coldplay
i just returned from the playground. i like to visit the roof-top playground when it's dark, and allow myself to be hypnotised by the stars and planets that sparkle against the nightsky canvas as i lie on the children's slide (i call it my psychaitrist's chair). i dont know why but i feel some sort of connection and comfort and understanding whenever i look at the nightsky. or it could be a sign that im going mad. afterall, it's about time the effects of reading too many sylvia plath poems start showing. hah.
speaking of literary works, ive been reading proper novels lately, not those poem books that can be read within an hour. novels may be boring to you maybe. but i quite enjoy reading lately(im surprised myself). i guess that's because it's been more than a year since i read a proper novel. the last book i read was the Da Vinci Code and that was when i was selling merlions at suntec! but anyways, the thing about me picking up reading again is a good thing actually. it does help me relax, especially on days when im feeling too angsty or PMSy to meet anybody.
sadly though, i doubt i can sustain my reading habit cos exams are looming! but even nearer are the deadlines for my personal reflection for world issues, and my resume. and yeah, a graded mock interview for a job application. the other two assignments are graded too. i guess, there is no end to deadlines. i hate being tired. but what i loathe even more is being idle.
so... for the coming holidays, i may take a job (hopefully related to my course of study to keep my brains from rusting). i may do community service (spreading joy to others rids all weariness). but of course, i'd take care of my health (meng is very worried. i know i look like crap but hey dont fret. there's always plastic surgery and organ transplant and voila! i have a brand new body).
random thought of the night: "if YOU were Job, would you still have faith?"
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