YMonday, July 31, 2006
what if...
i woke up this morning with a heavy heart. apart from blogging and a lil bit of msn-ing, much of my time last night (and the wee hours of this morning) was spent reflecting on world issues - prejudice, stereotyping, hate, discrimination, wars, terrorism, the new world order. yes, i was trying to get started on my WISP assignemnt.
amongst the issues mentioned, the new world order depressed me the most. it's the biggest consipiracy in the world. it's unjust, and so inhumane... saw the movie Hotel Rwanda? it was based on a real story. to think that the UN (and the rest of the world) could just choose to ignore the genocide.... let hundreds of thousands of lives end just like that. to close one eye and let all that bloodshed happen...it's.... so...disheartening? yeah, you always thought the UN would step in and play mediators in times of need. That, is so naive.
this world is warped. it's just... so wrong...? it's disgusting. why wont god step in and bring the crazy chaos in lebanon to a halt? probably as i'm writing this, people are dying in hospitals. why wont god knock some sense into the perpetrators? i mean, even if they emerge victorious, they would still have lost much. dont they know? or is this yet another of god's lesson?
Hebrews 13:1 says Let brotherly love continue. let brotherly love continue... continue? can it continue when it seems as if brotherly love has ceased to exist in the first place? it's hard being optimistic in a world like that. it sucks looking at newspapers, watching channel newsasia on tv mobile... arent you sick of it too? it wasnt easy for us to come to earth. but people kill and slaughter as if blood is water. i'm tired of it. it's ironic that while most countries are striving to achieve world class status, they still act in barbaric ways.
suddenly it seems what's going on now is scarier than what's said in the book of Revalations.
i'm lost. and i'm hurt by what i see, and what i can feel. im not satisfied being just a fly on the wall. im not satisfied just saying a prayer. not that i lack faith, but i dont wish to be idle. yet... i just dont know what to do. leave it to god? it would be easy. still, i cant pray and just sit idle. i just cant.
i need some light. and so does the rest of the world. we have all fallen out and are living in morbid darkness now. or maybe the Big guy is amongst us - physically in human form right now. He could be a peace activist, marching on the streets with a slogan in one hand, trying to be one of us, to unite all of us, to bring back the sanity and the humanity that we once had in us...
cai was here with you at